| Location | Adelaide, South Australia |
| Age | 2 years |
| Cause of Death | Not Listed? |
| Date of Birth | 21/06/2001 |
| Date of Death | 06/08/2003 |
| Visitors | 2,657 since 31/03/2008 |
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Our Beautiful Girl Nikayla Codi Hansen,*Angel Girl* Took Our Hearts!
Nikayla was born a survivor on the 21st Day Of June 2001, she received her Angel Wings on the 6th
Day Of August 2003
She blessed us with 2 beautiful years of her life..
****The Life****
You were given to me
as a blessing in my life
my heart now feels torn
it cuts like a knife
Just to know I cant
look into your eyes
just to know I can't
hear your laugh and cries....
anymore....
You are the one
who kept me fighting
now it's just the candle
by your picture I'm lighting
The memory is in my heart
I'm so scared it will fade
you in my life were so bright
you were the perfect shade
I know you hung on baby
but I thought it would last
the years would roll on
but I'm wrong, you passed
I love you so much sweetheart
only you and Jesus know
that forever in my heart
you will always grow
I can see you in the light
showered with unconditional love
I can't wait to hold you
when I come up above....
Love Mama -Written By N.Smith 25-8-03
Nikayla already had a sibling Angel awaiting to greet her in Heaven, Angel Baby Jaylei *White Light*
born to Heaven on the 21st Day Of June 2000 at 20weeks Gestation *Forever Loved & Missed*
When Nikayla went to Heaven her baby sister Maleiya was 6months old.
Maleiya Tala *Princess* is 5 years old now, born on the 25th of March 2003,
Then came Ditanyia Rosina-Lee *Butterfly* Our lil' Rainbow of Hope on the 15th Of December 2005,
We discovered we were expecting again shortly after, around 9weeks into the pregnancy our hearts
were shattered when we discovered we were having twins and one had gone to Heaven *Angel Twin* on
the 15th Day Of May 2006 *Always Remembered* Finally, the surviving twin, Our lil' man! Tejay Wayne
*Fatty Boy* on the 23rd of December 2006, Which completed our Growing Nest!
Also we have our sweet dog Bugga *Our Noble Steed* Bring so much love and joy to us all! He was born
on the 5th of May 2000
Our Angel Nikayla passed away after enduring a struggling, challenging battle.
She battled Severe Brain Atrophy, Cerebal Palsy & Slight Epilepsy due to Prolonged Labor and
Severely Prolonged Oxygen Deprivation during birth.
We are completely torn that Medical Negligence has imposed this heartbreaking outcome in our
lives...
Nikayla will Always be that special ray of light in our lives, she continues to live on in our
lives from her memories that we cherish and her presence that we feel and shines forever more...
The color Pink reminds me of Nikayla everytime, She use to love laying on her lambswool rug with her
cheeky smile and cute little dimples.
She had everyone in awe over her amazing aura and her advanced soul.
I remember when she started doing full circles on the floor, she was so secretive about it and liked
to trick me, I would leave the room for a short period of time and come back to see she had moved a
fair way across the floor! She use to flutter those beautiful long eyelashes and put on her mischief
face as if to say "I bet you have no idea how I got here!"
So I would pretend to leave the room and peek around the corner and catch her out and say "Hey
cheeky! Caught you!" she would just giggle at me.
In the bath she couldn't get enough of it! She would kick her legs better than a champion swimmer in
a marathon! She loved splashing her mama and making a bubbly mess all over the floor, getting out of
the bath was never a favorite thing for her. Her hair was getting soooo long and when it would dry
it would spring up in the most beautiful gorgeous curled golden brown locks i'd ever seen.
We use to have "girl time" where I'd dress her up and put glitter on her cheeks and pigtails in her
hair and she would just lay there and lap it up, she loved it so much, just like her foot and leg
rubs, she would chill out watching blues clues and at times fall asleep through her massages.
She LOVED the breeze! If she went out in the breeze, with it blowing through her locks and across
her face she would break out in the biggest smile ever! She would goo and gaa with pride and still
with that cheekiness in her face and the little dimples.
I will come back and write more, this is very painful
Thank you for reading ((((Hugs))))
Keep giving us *Glitter Kisses* Nikayla! If YOU are loving and missing Nikayla, You will know she
has been for a visit if you have an unexplained speck(s) of glitter on you!!!!
Forever In Our Hearts & Nikayla's existence is a huge part of our lives on a daily basis!!!!
Jesus, Thank You so much for holding Our Angel's...
A Teardrop And A Teddy Bear
♥;;♥ ♥;;♥♥;;♥ ♥;;♥;;♥;;♥ ♥;;♥;;♥;;♥ ♥;;♥
I pray You’ll tell my baby Lord
That I still love her so
And maybe kiss her on her cheek
So that her face will glow.
♥.•° °•.♥.•° °•. ♥.•° °•.♥
Please hold her little hand for me
And never let her fall.
And gently whisper in her ear
I miss her most of all.
♥.•° °•.♥.•° °•. ♥.•° °•.♥
And would you also give to her
A teddy with a tear?
And let her know that thoughts of her
Still fill my heart with cheer.
♥.•° °•.♥.•° °•. ♥.•° °•.♥
I know that You’ll watch over her
And keep her in Your care.
And when my life on earth is done
Please let me join her there.
♥.•° °•.♥.•° °•. ♥.•° °•.♥
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My heart goes out to you my little boy was let down by the medical proffesion i hope Nikayla has met my angel Stuart xxx
Hey My Girl
Hi baby, mama just wanted to let you know I MISS YOU! I really do sweetheart, I keep pushing (trying to) all away, I don't want to think about it, I don't want to be sad, but I am. I get that way and I don't want to say why so I blame it on the rain or the anything but the truth. I miss you so very much honey, my heart hurts, I cry so so loud inside but nothing shows, my eyes tell a story but no one can read. I miss Jaylei so so much too,I wish Tejay's twin had of made it here with him also baby and your pape, uncle paul(I bet he is with you playing chasey for me) and Aunt Sonia, she will be putting pretties in your hair like she use to to me. All my friends, have you met Rachel yet? Tell her I miss her, also Billy and Todd, please tell Todd I am sorry for the fall out we had and that I took his CD but he was not nice either. I just miss your cuddles baby, I want them back, I want you! Are you really flying around your room? Or is it just me wishing too hard? I hope it is you baby, I feel it is and so does everyone who has witnessed it, I just want to touch you so bad honey. Why couldn't I save you? Why baby? Why?.... I'll never know will I? Please surround our family with all your love, you and all our Angel's baby, especially for Christmas darlin' I'd love to have a family Christmas, In the name of Christ. Give pape a big big smack for mama ok then run off giggling, then he won't be able to tell you off cos you will be so cute at it hehe, Miss you all baby and I need you all too!
Please send your Dada **Glitter Kisses** I know he thinks about you alot baby, he is a great Daddy hey sweetheart.
Love Mama, I'm nearly crying now, I have to go Honey, it is too real, all of this is real but I hate it Xxxx ********TEARS******** Xxxx Xxxx Xxxx Xxxx Xxxx Xxxx
If I could have a lifetime wish
a dream that would come true
I'd pray to God with all my heart
for yesterday and you.
A thousand words can't bring you back
I know because I've tried
And neither will a million tears
I know because I've cried.
You left behind my broken heart
and happy memories too
I never wanted memories...
I only wanted you.
xxxxxx
My Glitter Girl
Hi baby, Just trying once again to do this in hope it will work,
Ive missed coming on here and being able to light you candles, I can do certain things in my garden but most times can't light a candle or do a tribute! :-(
I'm missing you so so so much my sweet Girl! I wish so bad I could cradle you in my arms and curl up for a nap with you like we always use to....
A tear comes to my eye lately thinking about everything I have gone through in life, to wonder why(besides your sister's and brother & Dada) I'm still here on this earth....
I love your Dada so so so much baby, he truly loves you and gets upset that your not here and often talks about what it would be like, as you know...
I have been staring at him Nikayla, he is asleep on the loungeroom floor in our new house and he's been mumbling in his sleep, it's so cute....
I want to fall into his arms, and collapse, let myself go and break....
But you know that I'm too shut off....
Please give Jaylei and Tej's Angel Twin a kiss and hug from us all baby....
Im never going to heal Nikayla, I will carry this cross, and this agonizing pain for the rest of my days....
So many losses on my back, I can't let go....
Why can't people around me ask about you???? Why do they stop after they find out the "Gossip"
Why do I have no-one besides your Dada(Thank God I have him) to talk to outside the household???
Why are people so narrow minded and belittle your name by ignoring your existence and acknowledging your life baby and my pain....
I must go sweetheart, your bro has got up for his bottle.
Love you Nikayla Codi..... Always Forever baby!!!!
Love Mama Xxxx Xxxx Xxxx Xxxx
For My Big Sister
Dear Nikayla,
I love you so much, I don't want to lose you. The half of earth thats apart about life, we are friends forever....
Can you please come back?
I love you so much, Michael at school keeps pushing me, Michael starts with an M.
I miss you so much sissy,
Love Maleiya (5 years) Xxxx
Hey Baby
Oh, Nikayla....
Ive been swamped with Private Messages and emails from Mama's on my bereavement site wanting me to go back...
I feel for them all, truly I do....
It's nice to know I was wanted there after all, but ive made some pretty good friends....
I cant go there and post my feelings and have them taken the wrong way baby....
I will miss going there and letting out what is on my mind, but I can't bear what has been happening on there and feel like a total fool....
Im sorry baby...
Please come hold me Nikayla.....
I can ask
and ask............
But physically you are gone....
I can't take the fact that you died in vein, that you died at the hands of a careless Dr who thought he'd play God with you....
Im sorry my Glitter Girl, I miss your shrine....
Wont see it for another week or two, it hurts that your stuff is all in boxes! it kills me....
Hold me please with your Glitter Wings.....
I need to see some light, it's so dark where I am baby.... they say im strong, but I feel im closer and closer to being with you and all My Angels....
I know you know....
Love you baby,
Love Mama Xxxx
Just a little something
Hey baby....
I did just do you a tribute but something happened and it got lost ****TEARS****
I hope you like the photo I put on here today baby...
Love You My Glitter Girl, Sparkle for me always ...
Love Mama Xxxx
Just A Quick lil note my love
Baby Girl, I miss you so very much!!!! Need you then I wouldn't need a bereavement site to go to to cope, share you with cos i'd have you in my arms Nikayla....
Alot of Mama's are upset im leaving and I feel for all of them, but I don't want to go to a place where my burden is too much to bare, or too overwhelming, after all, like im told, i shouldn't be in the deep grief im in after 5 years, yeah.... ok....
I hope you like the new picture i done today for you baby, I will put it here where you have all of me cheeky girl Xxxx
I LOVE you baby, wanna collapse into tears....
wanna scream till i have no air in my lungs to scream.....
Miss you my Angel Girl
Love Mama ****TEARS****
Xxxx
My letter to you my Girl(Journal entry 7th March 2008)
Hey My Beautiful Girl!
-------------------How is Heaven? Im sure its as magical as anything. I try to picture it but, I guess no matter what spiritual beauty I see in this life on earth, it is only the tiniest speck of the huge picture it is in reality!
Though im sure you dont want me to live as the torn woman/mother/wife that I am, I honestly cannot control myself.
Nikayla, NOONE but God, you and I will ever know what we went through TOGETHER....
Noone will ever know the bond we shared, the joy, the special communication we had.
I was your interpreter on this earth to people who CHOSE not to see past your "Disabilities" once they were aware of them. Really sad!
Do you remember when you cried out in pain, telling me Mama, this hurts. Asking me why you had to endure it all the time?...
Do you remember me right by your side, or you in my arms, soothing you through my tears?...
Them silent tears that would fall hard and fast during my quiet whispers in your ear that "I'm sorry my baby,Mama's here beautiful.... it's going to be ok my baby".... Every tear that fell from my eyes Angel was a wish and prayer to God....
A prayer that could he extend the miracle blessing of our survival at your birth to stopping all this pain and heal your scars and let you grow, to be the amazing, thriving survivor you would be today....
Yes, my sweet Angel, I guess also due to my knowledge of this all being a situation, an adaption also a life you and I had to live, it was not 'Fate' baby....
There is no erasing that it all happened, no going back in time and preventing the stupidity and neglect, The unforgettable hatred and resent I hold to the Dr. who played "God" with our lives my baby....
The one who HAD our lives in HIS control and basically almost wiped the both of us off the face of the earth....
Yes, my girl, we were saved, we pulled through it Honey, together!.... But, it ended up nearly 7 Years later, me sitting here without you baby, writing this letter of many to you.
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