| Location | Adelaide, South Australia |
| Age | 2 years |
| Cause of Death | Not Listed? |
| Date of Birth | 21/06/2001 |
| Date of Death | 06/08/2003 |
| Visitors | 2,658 since 31/03/2008 |
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Our Beautiful Girl Nikayla Codi Hansen,*Angel Girl* Took Our Hearts!
Nikayla was born a survivor on the 21st Day Of June 2001, she received her Angel Wings on the 6th
Day Of August 2003
She blessed us with 2 beautiful years of her life..
****The Life****
You were given to me
as a blessing in my life
my heart now feels torn
it cuts like a knife
Just to know I cant
look into your eyes
just to know I can't
hear your laugh and cries....
anymore....
You are the one
who kept me fighting
now it's just the candle
by your picture I'm lighting
The memory is in my heart
I'm so scared it will fade
you in my life were so bright
you were the perfect shade
I know you hung on baby
but I thought it would last
the years would roll on
but I'm wrong, you passed
I love you so much sweetheart
only you and Jesus know
that forever in my heart
you will always grow
I can see you in the light
showered with unconditional love
I can't wait to hold you
when I come up above....
Love Mama -Written By N.Smith 25-8-03
Nikayla already had a sibling Angel awaiting to greet her in Heaven, Angel Baby Jaylei *White Light*
born to Heaven on the 21st Day Of June 2000 at 20weeks Gestation *Forever Loved & Missed*
When Nikayla went to Heaven her baby sister Maleiya was 6months old.
Maleiya Tala *Princess* is 5 years old now, born on the 25th of March 2003,
Then came Ditanyia Rosina-Lee *Butterfly* Our lil' Rainbow of Hope on the 15th Of December 2005,
We discovered we were expecting again shortly after, around 9weeks into the pregnancy our hearts
were shattered when we discovered we were having twins and one had gone to Heaven *Angel Twin* on
the 15th Day Of May 2006 *Always Remembered* Finally, the surviving twin, Our lil' man! Tejay Wayne
*Fatty Boy* on the 23rd of December 2006, Which completed our Growing Nest!
Also we have our sweet dog Bugga *Our Noble Steed* Bring so much love and joy to us all! He was born
on the 5th of May 2000
Our Angel Nikayla passed away after enduring a struggling, challenging battle.
She battled Severe Brain Atrophy, Cerebal Palsy & Slight Epilepsy due to Prolonged Labor and
Severely Prolonged Oxygen Deprivation during birth.
We are completely torn that Medical Negligence has imposed this heartbreaking outcome in our
lives...
Nikayla will Always be that special ray of light in our lives, she continues to live on in our
lives from her memories that we cherish and her presence that we feel and shines forever more...
The color Pink reminds me of Nikayla everytime, She use to love laying on her lambswool rug with her
cheeky smile and cute little dimples.
She had everyone in awe over her amazing aura and her advanced soul.
I remember when she started doing full circles on the floor, she was so secretive about it and liked
to trick me, I would leave the room for a short period of time and come back to see she had moved a
fair way across the floor! She use to flutter those beautiful long eyelashes and put on her mischief
face as if to say "I bet you have no idea how I got here!"
So I would pretend to leave the room and peek around the corner and catch her out and say "Hey
cheeky! Caught you!" she would just giggle at me.
In the bath she couldn't get enough of it! She would kick her legs better than a champion swimmer in
a marathon! She loved splashing her mama and making a bubbly mess all over the floor, getting out of
the bath was never a favorite thing for her. Her hair was getting soooo long and when it would dry
it would spring up in the most beautiful gorgeous curled golden brown locks i'd ever seen.
We use to have "girl time" where I'd dress her up and put glitter on her cheeks and pigtails in her
hair and she would just lay there and lap it up, she loved it so much, just like her foot and leg
rubs, she would chill out watching blues clues and at times fall asleep through her massages.
She LOVED the breeze! If she went out in the breeze, with it blowing through her locks and across
her face she would break out in the biggest smile ever! She would goo and gaa with pride and still
with that cheekiness in her face and the little dimples.
I will come back and write more, this is very painful
Thank you for reading ((((Hugs))))
Keep giving us *Glitter Kisses* Nikayla! If YOU are loving and missing Nikayla, You will know she
has been for a visit if you have an unexplained speck(s) of glitter on you!!!!
Forever In Our Hearts & Nikayla's existence is a huge part of our lives on a daily basis!!!!
Jesus, Thank You so much for holding Our Angel's...
Journal entry 7th March 2008
cont.... As Always, wanting to feel you so desperately....
----------------------Burning up inside, yearning for you.... The reality that your not here I find it impossible to let myself absorb baby. I feel if i did id definitely be a 'rite off'. Michael tells me to go outside and get abit of sunshine. I refuse, or I go angry. Takes me back to all them times id give you your bolus feeds and patiently wait for the nurses to do your OB's then id unplug you, place you in the pram and, as I would say "Come on my baby Girl, we're breaking outta here!"
Do you remember how id hang the headphones of our Walkman over the prams hood and sing to you? How id sit at the park bench with you in front of me talking to you about the nurse that was on being a clueless bitch, or anything I could to get that cheeky smile of yours to flash my way with the twinkle in your eyes at the same time.
Journal entry 7th March 2008
Till the day you left me, you always had me feeling blessed to see all your different expressions, -The fluttering of your long eyelashes, -the 'whatever' eye roll, -the 'nosey' face you pulled when you'd listen in on others conversations, -the dimples, especially when Blues Clues made her sounds to you, your eyes would widen in delight and you tried so hard to copy it back, -your 'Hehe' face when it was bed time, like how you'd give me a few kicks in the legs and you'd come towards my face with yours and try suck on my cheekbone, so id tickle you till you'd try get away, i know in the right spots you'd giggle and squirm, that special way id tickle your ribs or your back... Then id pull you really close and smother you in loving, gentle kisses ans stroke your beautiful curls and we'd both fall into our relax mode....
It hurts so much now.... To know the many nights we'd fall asleep face to face, nose to nose, breathing each others breath.... My Angel, there are no more....
There are so many of these memories that spin through me, I really need you with me baby! I want to force myself into denial always forever. Acceptance that your gone forever to me is like forgetting you existed.... It'll never happen my Beautiful Glitter Angel Girl. I have songs, painful they are deeply, my love, but more so if I don't hear them and soak up the moments with you....
I will never let you go baby, You relied on me to live through what you did, you were fully Dependant on me which was normal -But people fail to see that I was Dependant on you Honey. That our bond of love went deep to the extreme in our spirits....
Please stay with me Angel. Lord knows I need you so bad my baby....
Now days my tears of loss fall/scream inside me daily forever.... Love Always Mama
----------------Footprints forever Xxxx
****TO OUR ANGEL****
Thinking of you on your Anniversary today Nikayla Codi, feeling you here, I never know what to say on Anniversaries, All I can think is to be happy for your birth as a true Angel in Heaven with Jesus. But i'm sad to think of the day we lost an Angel on earth, and the pain of you not being here with your family.
Please shower us all with **Glitter Kisses**, BIG hugs for Mama and please show Princess your there for her, I cant help but feel she's lost in a few places right now.
Love You Angel and think of you so much! Love Dada Xxxx
P.s Mama said please give Bugga your love and comfort 'till he is back with us again. Xxxx
MISSING YOU BABY!!!!
Hi my sweet love, well, as you know, your Dad and I took your brother and sisters out to the ocean.... Thank you so much for coming along and letting us all know in your special way that you were there with us today, it really meant the world to me. I wish there were no Anniversaries baby, I wish you were in my arms where my heart aches for you to be.... Still, I think it was a really compassionate day celebrating your return to Jesus in Heaven, though I ponder alot on why I should really have to miss out on you being in our lives in a physical sense.... Please surround Maleiya especially with your Angel Love, she is finding it really difficult without you baby and is starting to close off a little and that nearly brings me to tears.... Thank you for the sunshine at the right moment, and thank you for the rainbow baby it was so Amazing standing in the ocean with your Dada and holding him when we witnessed it together.... thanks for making me laugh alot today, though I feel guilt inside... I know you would love to hear my laugh and see my smile.... that may change as the night ends, but at this moment I feel so lifted by you and I'm trying to focus on the blissful memories we shared. I love you baby, I'll never stop. Ever!!!!
'In my dreams i'll always see you soar above the skies,
In my heart I know they'll always be a place for you and I....
I'll keep arart of you with me,.... and everywhere i am, there you'll be....' (Faith hill)
Love you My Glitter Angel! Love Mama Xxxx Xxxx Xxxx Xxxx
HAPPY 7TH BIRTHDAY
Happy birthday to you our beautiful Angel Girl, 7 today. We are all thinking of you baby, Your brother is giving Mama LOTS of cuddles, think he feels her stress but i wonder if your there when he snuggles her (HUGS). I hope you feel all our love today and can smile down on us. Your littlest sister just woke up and wishes you a happy birthday. I pray you can show our lil family some light through these hard times, hope you can see our evolution, please guide us on the path. Love you Nikayla, everytime i look at our computer and see your beautiful smile i can see the amazing lil girl you were here and hope you are smiling down on us all always. Happy Birthday baby, thinking of you and all of our angel babies.
Xxxx Love Dada
****HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANGEL!!!!!!!!****
My baby, i sit here, it has just gone past 7:27am on 21 June 2008, You were born at this exact time 7 long years ago.... I wish you a Happy 7th Birthday my love, eventhough i wish you were here in my arms, Im wearing the Pj's i wore in the hospital when i had you, Please could you hug your Angel siblings for Mama, especially Mama's first Lil bubba as that bubba i gave birth to the exact same day as you the following year, ironic, thought it was a blessing when you came into the world on the same date, but now that you are both gone it feels so 'cursed' I'm listenin to your songs baby 'Angel's Wings' By Westlife, 'My heart still beats' By Destiny's child, All our songs from the Westlife 'Coast to Coast' Also Evanescence, especially 'My Immortal'.... Thank the Lord for me baby that I was blessed with 2 challenging, yet amazing, beautiful years with you! I ask him for forgiveness that i hold so much anger and jealousy that you are there and not here with me....
7 Years!!!!
I love you!!!!
7 KISSES ********X*X*X*X*X*X*X********
Make sure you catch your balloons for you an bubba wont you baby and dance around the fluffiness of Heaven with them....
Sit with us all as your sisters and brother eat you some cake....
Fly around the candle flame to show me you like it and you are here won't you baby....
LOVE you!!!!
MISS YOU SO MUCH!!!!!!!!!
This is the last time i will celebrate your birthday in this house as you know baby.... Next year will be totally different but the same in the case of my broken heart wanting you back....
Give Maleiya ********HUGE KISSES AND HUGS********
Please tame your wild little sis Ditanyia down, she's feeling alot of emotions that she cant express maybe... it scares me....
And Tejay is mirror image of you (Except the obvious!!!!) and just like you, he will NOT sleep without his Mama! ****Poor Dada hey**** (Hehe)
Now i'm listenin to 'from the sea' By Eskimo Joe... ****Tears****
Don't wanna go but i know i gotta baby.... But i won't say goodbye.... Never!
Love you my Angel Girl (7 Today) & Bubba Jaylei (8 Today)
Love, Biggest Hugs & Kisses Eva!!!! Mama
Xxxx Xxxx Xxxx Xxxx Xxxx Xxxx Xxxx Xxxx
Way up in heavens garden
There's a magical castle in the sky
Where god places our little angels,
And teaches them to fly
The girls become sweet princesses,
And dance the day away
The boys are charming prince's
In this wondrous land of play
The castle is made of lollipops
And of all things that are sweet
There's a river made of angels tears,
For them to dip their tiny feet,
The angel tears are not tears of sadness.
They are tears of joy
To see such sights is happiness
For the chosen Angel girl or boy
For as you know, not all angels
Are picked to grace this castle in the sky
Only the tiny cherub prince's and princesses,
And here's the reason why
God has a place for all he takes
And puts them where they he deems
The little cherubs need a world of play
A land filled full of dreams
A place where they can play all day
And slide down rainbows so bright
swing from the stars if they desire
Then light the star lamps up at night
Its now they huddle close together
And some may take a snooze
Only if they wish to
Its up to them to choose
The ones that are not asleep
Are sending down their love
To you, direct from moon beams
They guide from up above
So be happy for your special cherub
From the soft clouds they will never fall
For anything good that they may wish for
Comes true here, anything at all
Its in the castle they will stay
with angels of their kind
until its their turn to open the castle gate
and its their mummy that they find
The only thing that they must do then
whilst waving goodbye to angel friends
Is walk to paradise with mummy
Just beyond the rainbows end.
Nearly made it baby girl
I'm sure you are disapointed in me for what I did, but baby when i stopped breathing, i woke up with a smile on my face, till i realized that i was still here... I know it was selfish maybe... My head is not clear. I miss your brother and Sister's, but it is all hazy, nothing is right.... I'm going to cry, so with that i need to go, i don't have your daddy to hold here.... love mama Xxxx have to go baby don't.... want.... to............. ********TEARS********
Love you Angel
Hello our beautiful Angel Girl, Love you baby and missing you as always. Things have been crazy lately, so much going on and lots have things have been fuzzy, thankyou for your love and Glitter Kisses to us all, Mama specially. The past has been on my mind and it hurts like you not being here but i know you know that..... I know you love all of our family and we will never let your memory die, your lil sis was sad bout you last night as she watched a dvd with a tear in her eye, she misses you so much as we all do, Were you with her today, she looked so special in her new uniform, know you would have been proud. Your days are coming and im sure here where we are our lil family will be doing it alone as always, maybe its better that way anyway, HUGS and KISSES goodnight Xxxx
Ive missed coming here baby...
Hey, My beautiful sweet girl!!!! As you know, mama's been sick, I haven't been on here for a while.... Sorry Baby.... I wonder if it you here last night ? I knew it was 3 of you but I don't know who, i'd like to think it was you and your pape and your Unc Paul Hefron.... But i guess i'll not know that one... I put the sofa bed in your room so i can lay in there and think, and have my time with you and my private thoughts.... Hope you like that.... I been emailing ya Aunt Tara, we have gotten pretty close hey baby! It's so good to have someone like her in my life, and the distance between doesn't affect us at all... It's good that she Always remembers you too baby! At the moment as you know i have refrained from going onto MISS cos of the outbreak that happened that night... I don't feel i had to be treated that way by a bereaved grandmother and god help that woman if she ever comes on here and starts her shit cos i have blocked her on MISS in everyway possible, as she would not piss off!!!! Like she says, apparently i go on there without supporting others, looking for support and if i don't get the 'pity party' i think everyone is attacking me!!!! I got 3 words for that bitch... GET A LIFE!!!! what made it worse is she done it ALL on one of MY topics cos she felt almighty telling ME that i should not be so deep in grief after nearly 5 yrs!!! Pfffftttt!!!! Yeah also sayin 'I'm not judgmental' uhuh! tellin me i NEED to appreciate your brother and sisters and on and on like she'd fu@*ing know what i appreciate.... Then she starts PM'n me tellin me she meant every word and she cares bout the mum's on there but not me... And what??? I'm meant to be a wreck??? NOT!!!! so FTW baby!!!! Anyways, you know what's been hapening here, pretty shitty at the moment... But your Sissy started school today!!!! WOW, me and ya dada are blown away by that!!!! it's all so full on, bittersweet too, hard, but amazing... so yeah, very mixed up... Also today being my mum's anniversary, cant say your Nannies cos she never was one. She disrespected your life and death... I am feeling all sorts of shit i don't even want to waste my feelings with... but anyways my beautiful... I must go FOR NOW.... I love you and you are in my heart and mind always forever my sweet love... My Angel Girl... My world!!!! LOVE Mama Xxxx Xxxx Xxxx Xxxx Xxxx Xxxx Xxxx Xxxx
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